Life’s Lesson’s

I watched Oprah’s final farewell yesterday.  I have not watched her in a few years, but thanks to a bum thumb I got to watch it.  I realized afterwards, I could have saved myself a lot of time through the years and just let her sum it up at the end.  For all the nay sayers of Oprah, you are wrong.  The last 25 years she showed people how to live out loud and live it as yourself.  You can say people worshipped her, and that may be true, but yesterday she gave it all to God and I think her life has shown that.  So, now I know for sure that I will never be invited to be a guest on her show.  It’s a bit sad, all this genius unrecognized….But seriously, if there is one thing I have learned from Oprah, is that anything is possible in life.

I’ve been learning a lot about life these past few years.  I know we all are as we grow, yadda , yadda, yadda but I seem to be paying attention more now than I ever have before.  Maybe its the waves of mortality that keep splashing in my face that keep reminding me of how little time we truly have here.  In the last few years I’ve had relatives, old friends, and new friends, and family of friends and friends of friends move on.    I’ve sent  my condolences, prayers and tears to people.  I have been to a wake and discovered that some people are just really special.  I’ve laid family to rest, that I have often wondered why they made the choices in their lives that they did, could they not see the damage they caused over the generations?  And I have had to say my good byes to a family member, that out of those ashes, rose like a phoenix in the eyes of God and I could only hope to be as warm and caring and freely loving as her.  Today, I was privileged to be amongst family and friends to honor a giant.  He was big in all ways, physically, spiritually, big in heart and kindness.  He was a whirlwind, not a force of nature, but a force of life.  I have my memories, sporadic as our meetings were, but always they stayed with me.  One of his close friends read the words “our purpose in life is to serve and love one another”.  He is so right and Scott did that so well.  The only funeral I did not want to leave.  As I drove home I had to ask myself, if I were to die today, would they say it was a life cut short, or a life lived fully and well?  Scott has set an incredibly high standard.  He will continue to be an inspiration to  me to live more fully.

These kind of things make you reflect on Heaven and what it is really like, who will be there when I get there and will I know all of life’s answers when I do.  I do know, that this past Sunday, I am assured that my daughter India will be there.  It seems natural for re-birth to happen at the time of death, it happens all the time.  Although baptism is merely a public acknowledgment of your acceptance of God, it’s also a symbol of re-birth.  India had the privilege of having her dad baptizing her.  There are only a few things that I ever hope for my children, one is to accept Christ and have relationship with Him. and the other is to love fully and purposefully.  I wish my kids would have known Scott better.

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Sometimes….

Sometimes I have moments in my life, day, whatever, when I feel like I am on the outside looking in.  Almost like I am a fly on my own wall, high above it all and completely disconnected.  Conversations stirring about me, but not sure if I am hearing any of it.  And not sure if the conversations have any meaning at all.  Are they just words spewing forth to fulfill someone’s need to feel like they are being heard?  Or do those words have deep meaning?  Well, some days, I have no clue.  I just know that some days, I am not hearing.

Sometimes I have moments in my life, day, whatever, where it seems that things are moving in slow motion all around me.  Like something you see in the movies, where the character is staring in disbelief or wonderment and all around him/her things are moving in some strange warp time.  Why does this happen?  And sometimes, I am encased in a feeling of dread.  Like down in the pit of my stomach, then creeps and spreads like slow-moving oil all through my chest cavity.  I think something is amiss.

Zoology 101

Oh yes, more zoo pictures!  Yippee!  Just what you wanted, more mommy blogging.  Really there are maybe more interesting/crazy things happening, but I really can’t get into all that right now.  So, just sit back and enjoy some snuggly, cute, fluffy animals.

Maybe not so snuggly….

Awww, snuggly baboons!

ZZZOOOOOOOLISCIOUS!

Yes, normally I would bring you the Thursday Reveal!  but not today.  I took #3 and #4 to the Toledo Zoo for a few hours the other day and we had some serious fun.  These are some of the pics that you will be inundated with for the next few days because that’s what I do!